The number three is meaningful. From three there is somewhere to go. It's not just one, or the ambiguous pairing of two. Three is when you know there's increase in your investment. It's like a sprouting bean and her shy twist-about heavenward tendrils going. Somewhere.
I'm at midlife, as this particular jam is regularly called and often as a modifier, as in the term: midlife crisis.
I've no interest in a long life. I worry about cremation costs. I worry about my youngest child and where he'd end up. Other than that I have no intention of reaching 88. Needing welfare checks. Not the paper sort. A public courtesy of one going round to the back door of the house.
I really do believe that graves should be free.