Until 2:30 p.m. I was in a really good place, and then my husband's response to my request for the waiver of the 90-day waiting period arrived. It was brutal. I've been painted as a complete lunatic. Once again, the stigma is being used against me as a weapon. According to his response my moods are completely out of control, I experience frequent rages from abandonment issues, I've refused to "get help," I'm obviously suffering from a personality disorder, a threat to my children, an abuser of my medications, and that I planned my hospitalization to leave him for imagined causes primarily focused around the want for babies. He states that he was never abusive (guess who was) and his therapy has only been geared at teaching him coping skills to deal with my instability, and that I have never taken any responsibility for the problems in our marriage.
He trashes me every which way imaginable and then he requests that I be granted the 90-day waiver.
I'm praying this thing doesn't become public record. If it is, I'm screwed.
What I don't understand is why he had to include all of the libel if he wasn't opposed to granting the request. I've been aiming at forgiveness and charity. I still am. I wish he hadn't made it such a challenge.